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​In this deeply personal season finale—recorded at the close of 2025 and shared now with the perspective of the new year—I’m opening up about the moment everything came to a screeching halt: a serious car accident that totaled my vehicle and shattered my sense of self-reliance.

​Healing isn’t a straight line, and in this episode, I don't skip over the "messy middle." We dive into the raw anger and self-blame that followed the crash, and the uncomfortable reality of being the "strong one" who suddenly has to rely on others for rides, support, and patience. If you have ever felt like an inconvenience or judged yourself for not "bouncing back" fast enough, this conversation is for you.

​Inside this episode:

​The Struggle of Receiving: Why it’s so hard for caregivers and leaders to accept help, and how to stop apologizing for needing it.

​The Spiritual Side of Survival: Finding the moments of undeniable protection even in the wreckage.

​Being Clay: Exploring the perspective that growth often feels like cutting, and why I’m done hiding the "work-in-progress" version of myself.

​Though this story began as we closed out last year, its lessons have defined how I’ve entered 2026. I am stepping forward with "the cap off"—choosing less fighting, more freedom, and a much softer grip on control.

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Not just today, but forever

Not just by some,

But by the ONE who created you in His Love

And HE's Not The ONLY One

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Ever feel like your life is spinning, but not in a way that’s shaping you? I open up about the moment a simple hymn line—“Thou art the Potter and I am the clay”—turned into a vivid picture of me fighting the wheel instead of trusting the hands that hold me. That image birthed the heartbeat of this show: be clay. Not the planner, not the potter—just willing, soft, and ready to be formed.

From there, we get honest about gratitude. Not the polite list, but the kind that springs from realizing how many second chances we don’t deserve and yet somehow receive. I talk about choosing gratitude as a daily practice, especially in December, and how that choice changes our tone, our pace, and our response to stress. We explore the difference between knowing of God and truly knowing God—time, conversation, and a relationship that naturally shifts what we do and don’t do. If grace met me when I was unlovable by my own standards, then my posture toward others must change. That’s where love stops being theory and starts being practice.

If you’re ready to trade control for surrender, anxiety for gratitude, and hesitation for action, this conversation will meet you right where you are and nudge you forward.

Subscribe, share this with someone who needs a hopeful push, and leave a review to tell me what you’re choosing—gratitude, surrender, or that first step to unbury a gift. What will you pick today?

You are Loved!

Not just a little, but greatly

Not just today, but forever

Not just by some,

But by the ONE who created you in His Love

And HE's Not The ONLY One

We Love You Unconditionally
&
There's nothing you can do to change it!!!!

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The mic is back on, the candles are out, and something real has shifted. Turning thirty-nine didn’t just add a number; it lifted a weight. I’m sharing how a quiet weekend in Virginia, a birthday test, and a year of honest work pulled me from disorganized attachment toward secure ground—and what that means for faith, family, and everyday peace.

I open up about living in fight-or-flight for years and finally getting the language to name it. We explore how attachment styles shape our relationships with people and with God, why trust feels hard when your body expects danger, and how quick fixes keep wounds open. This is an unhurried look at healing: slowing the pace, letting God be God, and staying on the table long enough for deep work and full recovery. I talk about the apology I owed my kids, the compassionate truths I told my parents, and the boundaries that protect love instead of punish people.

You’ll hear practical takeaways—recognizing triggers, building secure practices, setting small consistent boundaries, and letting worthiness come from being chosen, not from constant performance. We also cover a few life updates: going back to school at WGU, writing in progress, and a commitment to a real release schedule. If you’ve ever felt stuck between wanting closeness and fearing it, or if faith feels distant because survival is loud, this story will give you language, hope, and next steps.

If this resonates, share it with a friend who’s fighting for healing, subscribe for weekly episodes, and leave a review to help more people find the show. And keep an eye out as I re-upload past episodes to Spotify and Apple under “Rewind”—for now, they’re on YouTube.

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You are Loved!

Not just a little, but greatly

Not just today, but forever

Not just by some,

But by the ONE who created you in His Love

And HE's Not The ONLY One

We Love You Unconditionally
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There's nothing you can do to change it!!!!

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