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Welcome back to another episode of Be Clay! In this episode, we are continuing our journey through the seasons of 2024, reflecting on how far we've come as we work toward wrapping up major milestone goals by August 31st.

Today, we are taking a deep look at the lessons learned during the summer of 2024—specifically around the time of my daughters' 16th birthday party. I'm opening up about a major shift in my own perspective regarding the "armor" I used to carry. For a long time, I operated under the assumption that I had to handle everything completely on my own because people would inevitably let me down. I share what it feels like when healing gets tested in real time, when May and June pressures hit and the old reflex kicks in: don’t ask, don’t expect, don’t rely. That survival mindset can look like strength, but it can also quietly block support, community, and connection. If you’ve ever felt overlooked, like you’re always the one giving 150% and getting 10% back, you’ll recognize the pattern fast.

A frustrating, overwhelming experience planning that party forced me to realize how that mindset was actually blocking community, support, and blessings—not just for me, but for my kids. The heart of this story is what happened after the party. I didn’t send reminders because I assumed it wouldn’t matter, and then people came to me genuinely upset they missed it. That response forced me to face a hard question: am I letting past disappointments dictate my capacity to receive help today? And if I’m a parent, what does that teach my kids about love, belonging, and letting others show up for them?

Join me as we talk about identifying the triggers and mindsets born from past disappointments, learning how to actually utilize the community around us, and recognizing that we are worthy of showing up and being supported. If you’re working on healing, trauma recovery, self-worth, or building a healthier support network, this conversation gives you a mirror and a next step. Subscribe for more, share this with someone who carries everything alone, and leave a review with the belief you’re ready to challenge.

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Not just by some,

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2023 was a controlled demolition of my false identity. But entering 2024? That’s where the real test began. In this episode of Be Clay, we are diving headfirst into the raw, uncut truth of the healing journey.

It all started when I fell down a rabbit hole after hearing about the B. Simone and Megan Ashley “Know For Sure” breakup. What began as looking into a viral internet situation turned into a life-changing introduction to attachment theory—and that’s exactly where the tears hit. I’m getting completely honest about the fear, the pushback, the moments I doubted God’s voice, and the kind of healing that refuses to let you stay comfortable.

We’re unpacking how these emotional blueprints dictate how we show up in our relationships—whether you find yourself in the anxious, avoidant, or disorganized camp. But the deepest layer we explore here is faith. I’m connecting our attachment wounds to how we approach God, how we pray, and why receiving love can feel completely impossible even when we say we believe it.

If you’ve ever felt like you’re “too much,” feared being left, or pulled away the moment someone gets close, this episode will put language to your pain and point you toward a healthier path.

Hit subscribe, share this with a friend who needs it, and leave a review letting me know which attachment pattern you relate to most.

Note: This is Part 1 of a massive, deeply personal conversation. Make sure to stay tuned for Part 2 dropping right after this!

You are Loved!

Not just a little, but greatly

Not just today, but forever

Not just by some,

But by the ONE who created you in His Love

And HE's Not The ONLY One

We Love You Unconditionally
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There's nothing you can do to change it!!!!

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You ever look up and realize you’ve been living as a version of yourself that was built to survive, not a version that was built to be free? That’s where I’m starting, with a raw 2023 overview that became a prequel to everything that hit in 2024. I’m talking about identity, self-worth, spiritual healing, and the painful moment when the “real you” shows up and you don’t even recognize her.

One of the biggest turning points is May 2023, when my mom almost died and needed back-to-back surgeries. While I’m trying to recover from my own internal “surgery” and finally choose myself, everyone expects me to do what I’ve always done: fix it, carry it, save everybody. I name the cost of that role, the guilt that comes with boundaries, and the mirror moment where I have to admit, through tears, that I’m not the Messiah and I can’t keep doing God’s job.

We also get into how the voices in your head get there in the first place. I connect childhood church life, family dynamics, and constant pressure to the lie of “you’re too much,” plus the way people can shrink you when they’re threatened by your light. I even use A Bug’s Life to explain why intimidation works so well and why reclaiming your authentic self feels like rebellion. If you’re working through trauma, people pleasing, identity confusion, or faith-based healing, this one is for you.

If this speaks to you, subscribe so you don’t miss the 2024 chapter, share this with someone who’s learning boundaries, and leave a review. What’s one belief about yourself you’re ready to question? I challenge you to really look at yourself. Is this really who I am?

You are Loved!

Not just a little, but greatly

Not just today, but forever

Not just by some,

But by the ONE who created you in His Love

And HE's Not The ONLY One

We Love You Unconditionally
&
There's nothing you can do to change it!!!!

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