In Episode 9 of Pain. Full. Truth., I talk about what it really means to start working again while living with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (CRPS).

The DRG trial has been postponed until the end of October, but life didn’t wait. A new job brought purpose and pride — and a whole new kind of pressure. I share what it’s like trying to balance meetings around medication, smiling through flare-ups, and dealing with the quiet guilt of looking “better” while still fighting the same invisible battle every day.

This episode also opens up about the financial realities of returning to work, the way people’s perceptions change, and how stepping back from streaming has left a quiet gap that I’m still learning how to fill.

It’s honest, raw, and real — because sometimes progress doesn’t look like healing… it just looks like showing up.

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In Episode 8 of Pain. Full. Truth., I open up about the reality of living with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (CRPS) when every day feels like a test of endurance.

This episode is about the quiet moments most people never see — the exhaustion, the frustration, the pressure to keep things normal for my family, and the guilt that creeps in when I can’t. I talk about the balance between wanting to do more and knowing that doing more will cost me days of recovery afterwards.

I also share how I’m trying to hold everything together while waiting for the next stage of treatment, managing medication, and finding small moments of control in a life that feels anything but predictable.

This isn’t just about pain — it’s about persistence, family, and finding strength when you’ve got nothing left in the tank.

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In Episode 7 of Pain. Full. Truth., I open up about the other trial I face — not in a hospital, but in front of the benefits system. Living with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (CRPS) means constant pain, but it also means constantly proving that pain to strangers.

I talk about the endless paperwork, the tick-box questions that never capture reality, and the assessments that make you feel like you’re on trial for your own life. I share how this process chips away at your pride, affects your mental health, and ripples through your family.

This episode also looks ahead to what comes next — my two-week Pain Management course at Guy’s & St Thomas’, the build-up to the DRG stimulation trial, and the uncertainty of knowing my future depends on a 50% pain reduction target.

If you’ve ever battled the benefits system, doubted yourself while filling in forms, or felt invisible in your own pain — this one’s for you.

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