In Episode 74 of Brolapse, HungerFF sits down with ⁠John Thomas⁠ for a conversation that goes far beyond the surface of porn.

John opens up about his fisting origin story, growing up with religion, guilt, and desire colliding early, and how kink evolved from curiosity into identity. From London sex clubs to navigating HIV, relationships, and self-acceptance, his journey is deeply personal—and unexpectedly relatable.

But this episode doesn’t stop at the origin story.

The two dive into the reality behind extreme content: the difference between performance and pleasure, why group dynamics can shift intimacy into spectacle, and how constant content creation is changing the industry itself. John speaks candidly about burnout, authenticity, and why making fewer—but more meaningful—scenes matters.

One of the most powerful moments comes when the conversation turns to responsibility. In a world where porn is often used as education, John reflects on the importance of context, honesty, and showing real pleasure instead of pain or performance.

This is a thoughtful, self-aware, and deeply human episode about identity, boundaries, influence, and what it actually means to live inside the body everyone is watching.

In this episode of Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with Chicago-based creator Wyld Ryder for a candid conversation about confidence, kink, and the slow burn of becoming fully yourself.

Wyld opens up about his journey from a quiet corporate life to embracing his deviant side online, how fitness and self-acceptance became the gateway to content creation, and why piggish desire was always there—just waiting for permission to surface. Together, they unpack how fisting moved from fantasy to reality, why trust and intimacy matter so deeply in kink, and how submission can be an act of empowerment rather than erasure.

The conversation also explores authenticity in an oversaturated content landscape, navigating relationships while being publicly sexual, and the importance of genuine connection—both on camera and off. Wyld shares how his dynamic with Brogan helped shape his confidence as a creator, and why staying true to what actually turns you on is the key to longevity.

It’s an episode about growth, honesty, and choosing depth over performance—inside and out.

Episode 72 completes the two-part HungerFF Sound Initiative.

Following last week’s introduction, Part Two leans fully into execution, featuring four complete track drops that expand the project’s sound, humor, and erotic logic. Recorded as an audio-only episode, this installment blends commentary with music, allowing each track to stand on its own while remaining part of a larger arc.

This episode includes “Schlop Schlop,” “I Cleaned Out for This,” “Assgasm,” and “Built to Fist.” Together, the tracks move from playful and visceral to hypnotic and industrial—exploring the sounds of fisting, shared community tropes, the pursuit of anal orgasm, and the fantasy of the perfect fister as something engineered rather than accidental.

With Part Two, the Sound Initiative shifts from concept to payoff. Next week, Brolapse returns to its regular interview format.

In Episode 71, HungerFF steps away from traditional interviews and introduces a new music-driven project that blends kink, humor, masculinity, and AI-assisted production. Recorded as an audio-only episode, Part One features full track drops and commentary, giving listeners a guided introduction to the Sound Initiative and the creative mindset behind it.

The episode includes complete plays of “Fisting in the Moonlight,” “All Men Love Rosebuds,” and “Cunt,” along with a preview of the upcoming industrial EDM track “Obsessive Fisting Disorder.” Spanning genres from country and 1950s swing to warehouse EDM, the project explores fisting culture through unexpected musical styles—leaning into contrast, camp, and unapologetic masculinity.

Part Two arrives next week with additional tracks before Brolapse returns to its regular interview format.

Some episodes are fun. Some are loud. And then there are the rare ones that feel like a real conversation you’re lucky to witness.

In Episode 70, Rocco Steele joins me for an honest, reflective talk about stepping away from the industry and what it means to finally let a public persona become a smaller and smaller piece of your life. Rocco shares how a serious health scare shifted his priorities, how his husband showed up for him in a way that reaffirmed everything, and why he’s been planning a gradual exit for the last couple of years. Not out of bitterness, not out of shame, but out of clarity.

We get into the unseen work behind being “on” all the time. The toll of appearances. The burnout. The pressure to keep up with an online machine that never stops. Rocco breaks down the boundaries that mattered most to him, especially protecting his sobriety and his marriage, and what it feels like to move through the world when people recognize you in places where you’re just trying to be a person.

This conversation also goes deeper into chosen family, grief, and aging as a gay man. Rocco talks about coming out in the 80s, the losses that shaped his generation, and how getting older has changed what he values, what he gives his energy to, and what “grace” looks like in real life. We talk about the mental health cost of growing up online, and the quiet reckoning that hits when you’re trying to untangle your public self from your private self.

And yes, we revisit a full-circle moment from early HungerFF.com history, including why Rocco said yes to filming his first and only fisting scene and what that trust represented at the time.

This one is about legacy, integrity, and what happens when you stop performing and start living.

New episodes every Friday at 8 PM.

Pre-order Deeper (drops March 1, 2026): https://www.hungerFF.com/deeper

For Episode 69 of Brolapse, Ryan James does something different.

Instead of a guest, this episode offers a first listen to Deeper—his forthcoming memoir—presented here in its unedited author’s version. Ryan reads the full prologue, No Safe Words, followed by the first chapter, Impact, giving listeners an intimate introduction to the book’s voice, structure, and intent before final editorial revisions.

Deeper is not a traditional memoir. It rejects clean arcs and easy redemption in favor of fragments, contradictions, and lived texture. These opening chapters explore survival, addiction, performance, porn, identity, and the cost of turning pain into currency in the age of algorithms—without smoothing edges or offering answers that don’t exist.

Starting in March 2026, the Deeper audiobook will be released chapter by chapter as bonus episodes for Spotify subscribers, before eventually becoming available in full on Audible. If you’ve ever wondered what it sounds like when someone tells their story without a safety net, this is where it begins.

Pre-order the book now at https://HungerFF.com/Deeper

New episodes of Brolapse drop Fridays at 8 PM.

In Episode 68 of Brolapse, Ryan sits down with Brogan for a rare and deeply thoughtful conversation from the perspective of a fisting top—a voice we don’t hear nearly often enough.

Brogan shares his unconventional journey into fisting, from spending years unsuccessfully trying to bottom, to discovering that topping opened an entirely new sexual and psychological path for him. Together, they unpack how intuition, responsibility, communication, and consent shape truly connected sex—especially in practices that are often misunderstood or sensationalized.

The conversation dives into authenticity in content creation, burnout from performing what you think audiences want, and the freedom that comes from returning to sex that feels real. Brogan reflects on why fisting can be one of the most romantic and intimate sex acts he engages in, why cameras can sometimes disrupt that connection, and how presence matters more than performance.

They also explore training versus play, the dangers of inexperience masquerading as confidence, how the fisting scene has evolved post-COVID, and why normalization is powerful—but still requires care, accountability, and listening. From bratty bottoms to aftercare, from live events to private sessions, this episode is about slowing down, checking in, and making sure every moment is a genuine “fuck yes.”

This is a conversation about sex—but also about growth, trust, and what it means to truly take care of someone when you’re the one “driving the car.”

🎙️ HUNGERFF PRESENTS: BROLAPSE

New episodes drop Fridays at 8 PM

Early video access for Spotify subscribers

🎧 LISTEN & SUBSCRIBE:

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iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273

📖 DEEPER — Ryan’s memoir is available for preorder now:

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It’s the very first Brolapse Holiday Special 🎁 — and we’re flipping the script.

Inspired by the UK tradition of Boxing Day (a day rooted in role reversal), Dolan Wolf returns—this time as guest host—and puts me in the hot seat 😅🎙️

We get into the real stuff and the fun stuff:

✨ what the holidays mean to us (and what we can’t stand)

🍽️ favorite holiday foods + gift/collectible obsessions

🐶 what a “non-sexual day” actually looks like when your brand is HungerFF

🧠 burnout, work-life balance, and learning to take the “latex vest” off

📘 Deeper — what I learned writing my autobiography, why it was the most cathartic thing I’ve ever done, and the advice I’d give my younger self

👊 plus… classic Brolapse detours into pop culture, guilty pleasures, and unexpected questions that hit hard

If you’ve ever felt like you have to be “on” all the time… this one’s for you. 🖤

📘 Pre-order Deeper: https://HungerFF.com/Deeper

🎧 Listen on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa

🎧 Listen on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)

🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX

📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse

❤️ iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273

🕗 New video episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM! (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)

🎙️ Audio available at 8 PM across all platforms!