Everyone thought we were OK.

Because we were functioning. We weren’t.

Trigger warning: this episode discusses grief and suicide.

This episode is about the stage of grief where life has resumed but the weight has not lifted. When support fades, messages slow down, and you start carrying everything quietly.

We talk about functioning without being OK, deciding not to bring it up, and what happens to the things you start holding in.

UK Samaritans 116 123

US 988

Christmas can amplify grief.
The build up. The pressure to be OK. The empty moments nobody sees.

Trigger warning: this episode discusses grief and suicide

In this special episode we talk about what Christmas really feels like after loss. The moments that catch you off guard, the guilt when you laugh, opting out when you need to, and what genuinely helped.

If this reaches you, follow the podcast so you don’t have to carry it alone.

Full video on YouTube. Clips on Instagram and TikTok.

After the funeral, the messages stop and everything feels different.

Trigger warning: this episode discusses grief and suicide.

We talk about the first weeks after the funeral. The guilt. The silence. Trying to function. Wanting to talk and not wanting to talk. And how grief changes once the support fades and real life starts again.

UK Samaritans 116 123

US 988