Episode 50: The Moment You Realize You’ve Been Surviving, Not Thriving

There comes a quiet moment when you realize you are not actually living your life. You are enduring it.

In this milestone Episode 50, released one day before my 36th birthday, I share five personal signs that revealed I was surviving instead of thriving. These are not theoretical ideas. They are lived truths from my time teaching full time while trying to build my dreams, questioning myself, overextending, and slowly disconnecting from joy.

This episode is for anyone who feels stuck in “just getting through the week,” overusing things meant for joy, feeling short with themselves and others, postponing their dreams, or secretly believing something is wrong with them.

If you have ever wondered why life feels heavy even when you are doing everything you were taught to do, this conversation is for you.

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This episode is deeply personal.

In this conversation, Rev. Dr. Jackie Cope shares the story of her lowest emotional point: divorce at 29 and the unraveling of the life she thought she was building. She opens up about the heartbreak of being left, the shame and self-blame that followed, and the belief that no one would want her again.

Jackie walks listeners through the emotional spiral, the years of avoidance, and the moment when she could no longer run from herself. From the isolation of the pandemic to her first step into therapy, this episode traces the slow and courageous path back to self-worth.

The story doesn’t end with survival. It continues through healing, self-reflection, and the spiritual awakening that arrived after brain surgery, when Jackie finally found the words for what had been underlying everything: self-hate rooted in self-blame.

This episode is for anyone who has felt discarded, broken, or unworthy after a relationship ends. It is a reminder that healing is not about becoming better so someone will stay. It is about learning how to love yourself so you stop abandoning yourself.

This conversation weaves directly into Jackie’s 12-week healing container, Return to Love, where women/femme are guided out of self-blame and back into unconditional love through spiritual healing, metaphysical tools, and deep inner work.

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Self-hate is not a flaw.
It’s not a failure.
And it’s not something you can think your way out of.

In this episode, Rev. Dr. Jackie Cope breaks down why self-hate doesn’t respond to positive affirmations, mindset shifts, or “just love yourself” advice. She explains how self-hate is learned through survival, pain, culture, and early experiences and why real healing has to happen in the body, the subconscious, and the spirit.

This conversation is an invitation to soften, to look at yourself with compassion instead of criticism, and to understand what it actually takes to return to love. If you’ve ever felt stuck in self-blame, shame, or patterns you can’t seem to break, this episode will meet you with honesty, depth, and hope.

This episode connects directly to Jackie’s 12-week healing container, Return to Love, where women learn how to release self-hate and embody unconditional love through spiritual healing, metaphysical tools, and deep inner work.

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🌿 Learn more about Return to Love
https://ravenrabbit.com/pages/oh-i-dont-hate-myself

🌿 Live Course: Return to Love
https://ravenrabbit.com/pages/oh-i-dont-hate-myself

✨ Doors open December 26, 2025
(Enrollment page will go live here)
https://ravenrabbit.com/products/%F0%9F%8C%B9-oh-i-didn-t-hate-myself-i-just-was-never-taught-how-to-love-me

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