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My Last Relapse: Life in Recovery After Addiction

My Last Relapse: Life in Recovery After Addiction

Von: Matthew Handy
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 My Last Relapse is the recovery podcast that says out loud what you’ve been secretly thinking about addiction, relapse, and recovery.

Matthew Handy—who lived through two decades of drug use—cuts through the lies and fear-mongering that dominate traditional recovery programs.

This isn’t about war stories or your worst relapse moments. It’s about the future—your future—without rigid rules, unrealistic expectations, or being told you don’t belong.

This is real conversations about relapse, addiction, treatment, rehab, recovery programs, meetings, self-help, and the stigma that keeps people stuck. For anyone who feels burned out, left out, or cast out by traditional approaches, Matt and his guests offer radical honesty, practical insights, and a new way forward.

Whether you’re battling substance use, struggling with sobriety, navigating withdrawal, dealing with cravings, or just tired of going through the motions, My Last Relapse is here to remind you:

You’re in recovery when YOU say you are.

For individuals, families, friends, and professionals who are done with the lies and ready for a future without using, this is your space.

Today, Matt is one of the founders of Harmony Grove Behavioral Health in Houston, Texas, created with his brothers after living the struggles of addiction and recovery firsthand. Their shared journey shaped who they are and inspired the creation of Harmony Grove, a place where authenticity and clinical excellence guide every step of the process.

Together, they’ve built a program that feels real, meets people where they are, and provides tools for lasting success.

If you’re feeling overwhelmed or struggling, you don’t have to face it alone. Reaching out for support is a sign of strength, and help is always available. If you or anyone you know needs help, give us a call 24 hours a day at 844-430-3060.2025 Hygiene & gesundes Leben Seelische & Geistige Gesundheit Sozialwissenschaften
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    My Last Relapse explores what everyone is thinking but no one is saying about addiction and recovery through conversations with those whose lives have changed.

    For anyone disillusioned with traditional recovery and feeling left out, misunderstood, or weighed down by unrealistic expectations, this podcast looks ahead—rejecting the lies and dogma that keep people from imagining life without using.

    Got a question for us? Leave us a message or voicemail at mylastrelapse.com

    Find us on YouTube @MyLastRelapse and follow Matt on Instagram @matthew.handy.17

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    Producer: Eva Sheie
    Assistant Producers: Mary Ellen Clarkson & Hannah Burkhart
    Engineering: Voltage FM, Victoria Cheng
    Theme music: Survive The Tide, Machina Aeon
    Cover Art: DMARK

    My Last Relapse is a production of Kind Creative: kindcreative.com
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