As the year comes to a close, "the Guanyins" -- Roshis Allison Atwill, Tess Beasley, Michelle Riddle, and Sarah Bender -- team up to tell a wintery Christmas tale of wonder.

Holidays often come with difficulties, but also have the potential of opening the heart into unexpected moments of healing.

Listen to a story of reconciliation, surprise, and the blessing that emptiness can bring to any season.

Happy New Year!

"Zen sees awakening as a kind of miracle." - Tess Beasley.

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In this episode, Roshi John Tarrant shares a wondrous and humorous rendition of an old fairytale about the Golden Bird and Buddha Nature.

Explore how it is never our most treasured or heroic attitudes that lead us through the gates of awakening; it is far simpler than that.

Tarrant reminds us that, with just one sitting, all our crimes are wiped away.

Listen to this episode to learn about the benefits of generosity and discipline, and how we can best manage our expectations of desire and fulfillment.

"Everybody wants to be the best horse, but the worst horse is interesting." - John Tarrant

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Thanksgiving and the whole notion of gratitude can bring along complicated feelings.

In this episode, Roshi John Tarrant shares an old story about a miserable student convinced that he is beyond help.

The teacher he finds tells him she'll offer him a practice but only if he promises to take it up for a whole year, no questions asked. It goes terribly, but even that turns out perfectly in the end.

Gratitude is far more mysterious than we give it credit for, and impossible to fabricate.

Like awakening itself, it arises by itself as we move deeper on the path.

"We don't oppose anything that rises in the heart or mind." - John Tarrant.

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In this episode, Roshi John Tarrant shares an old Zen story about navigating impossible times and realizing how life carries us even when it's tough.

"For thirty years, I've been just getting by," says the teacher in question, "but I've never lacked for salt or sauce."

What makes the salt and sauce of our lives?

Listen to this moving and joyful exploration of how, no matter our circumstances, it is a good life, and that we, too, never lack for salt or sauce.

"Slowly the dharma just soaks into you." - John Tarrant.

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Being lost has a transformative beauty to it.

Being lost is a gateway to the extraordinary, as it brings about the possibility of not knowing who we are.

Listen to this episode as Roshi John Tarrant discusses the importance of being tossed out of our certainties and discovering something far more strange and true.

The final evening of sesshin in the bath.

"We can't object to the path or ourselves." - John Tarrant.

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During our journey of existence, we lose and find our true nature.

It's amazing what we know once we allow ourselves to know it.

What magic happens when koans start talking to each other?

In this episode, Roshi Tess Beasley discusses the game of hide-and-seek we are constantly playing with ourselves, others, and everything.

"There is some idea that things belong to us, but they certainly don't. That goes for our inner lives as well." - Tess Beasley.

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What does it mean to be in the bath of awakening?

We somehow always have a reluctance to immerse ourselves completely, which is the very thing that holds it at bay.

In this episode, Roshi Jess Cardin talks listeners through another water koan from The Blue Cliff Record in which the teacher recounts the "subtle touch reveals the light in everything."

What do you hold in reserve? What keeps you feeling outside of things or difficult to reach? Listen from deep in sesshin.

"Once I am in the bath, I can look back and see that I was always in the bath." - Jesse Cardin.

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The stone drenched with rain points the way.

In this episode, Roshi Allison Atwill speaks on a koan born of a haiku by Japanese poet Santoka Taneda.

What does it mean to be drenched in our own lives and experiences?

This episode invites listeners into the constant downpour that is the universe itself.

"It is a promising moment when we give up trying to control our situation; not to get our of the rain, but to let it soak through us." - Allison Atwill.

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