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Season 2, Episode 19

I share the real reason I started talking publicly about PTSD and how recording has become a surprising kind of therapy for me. I connect a song lyric to the hardest parts of recovery, then bring it back to everyday life with pain, setbacks, and the small social choices that keep me from isolating.
• my PTSD turning point at 37 and the end of my police career
• why telling my story out loud feels cathartic and healing
• learning from other people during inpatient mental health treatment
• the message behind “Weakness” and why PTSD does not define us
• how PTSD can look like weakness when it takes over sleep, relationships and independence
• the reality of ebbs and flows and counting small wins
• knee pain, missing sport, and the risk of isolating at home
• book club as a reminder that showing up can be worth it
• thought of the week on comparing yourself to others
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Song of the week:
Weakness by Dan Bremnes
https://youtu.be/aWIko5OwZ-k?si=323pUTzO-Rn03AHF

Thought of the week:
The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and The Horse by Charlie Mackesy
"What do you think is the biggest waster of time? comparing yourself to others, said the mole"

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Season 2, Episode 18

I talk through a cold, hard week and why showing up online with raw honesty helps me feel less alone and helps others feel seen. A Toy Story song opens up a bigger truth about PTSD, identity loss, and why tiny actions and real connection keep me from sliding into isolation.
• posting TikTok and social videos despite perfectionism
• creating a podcast to reach people who feel isolated
• using “Strange Things” to explain PTSD symptoms and shock
• grieving identity after PTSD and leaving policing
• knee MRI results and the emotional hit of losing sport
• balancing rest for injury with movement for mental health
• leaning on sewing and guitar as grounding tools
• pushing against isolation with mates, book club, and small plans
• thought of the week on being small and making a difference
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Song of the Week
Strange Things - Randy Newman
https://youtu.be/HQHdqbJQMrc?si=ZwwZhnDZMSvsO-mv

Thought of the week:
The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and The House by Charlie Mackesy
"Im so small, said the mole. Yes, said the boy, but you make a huge difference"

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Season 2, Episode 17

My knee injury has me sidelined from the sports that keep me grounded, and I can feel my brain racing ahead to the worst outcomes. I talk through how pain, poor sleep, and uncertainty flare my PTSD, and how I’m trying to use my tools before I slide too far down the snake.
• skipping song of the week because nothing resonates
• asking listeners for song suggestions and why they matter
• MRI booked and the stress of waiting for answers
• grief and fear about not playing team sport again
• how family time and identity are tied to basketball
• irritability and low mood when pain wrecks sleep
• motivation gaps even when I know what helps
• reframing “it is what it is” as a coping choice
• reminders from PTSD recovery tools and self-compassion
• vulnerability as the most honest way to podcast
please um just email me or message me the song that you would like to hear played. And if you are up to it, maybe just chucking in there why you like that song as well.
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Thought of the week:

The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and The Horse by Charlie Mackesy

"Always remember you matter, you're important and you are loved, and you bring into this world things no one else can"

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Season 2, Episode 16

I’m riding a wave of optimism while also dealing with knee pain that’s starting to tug at my mental health. I talk through how I keep myself from sliding into isolation by leaning on practical tools, supportive people, and a more hopeful inner voice.
• song of the week and why bad days can still be “worth gold”
• knee injury update, physio appointment, and being sent for an MRI
• the link between physical pain and psychological wellbeing
• choosing a short-term response without letting it become long-term
• using exercise that fits the injury, including swimming and physio work
• prioritising connection to avoid the isolation spiral
• simple breathing practice on waking and drinking water for hydration
• sleep disruption from pain and how it affects patience and relationships
• why mentoring helps turn big goals into small achievable steps
• finding community through shared interests like quilting and sewing
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Song of the Week:

Luke Combs: Days Like These

https://youtu.be/uGsmAZCwrG8?si=Y1E-fiz9XHlE4Gwu

Thought of the Week:

The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and The Horse - Charlie Mackesy

"I'm not afraid" said the mole, "if I wasn't caught in this snare I'd kill you" said the fox. "if you stay in that snare you will die" said the mole. So the mole chewed through the wire with his tiny teeth"

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Season 2, Episode 15

I talk about why friendship and connection can feel like the missing piece when life gets heavy, from Toy Story nostalgia to what real support looks like in practice. We also unpack recovery lessons from a course in Newcastle, a powerful cancer resilience story, and my ongoing work to reframe PTSD as a significant life event with hard parts and real positives.
• Taylor Swift fandom and why Toy Story sparks nostalgia and hope
• song of the week as a way to focus on friendship and support
• leaning on the people who keep showing up even after we push them away
• a simple way to check on a mate by texting “thinking of you”
• the importance of connection and community for mental health recovery
• what Mark Hughes’ brain cancer journey teaches us about resilience
• keeping perspective while remembering that every struggle is relative
• reframing PTSD and other challenges as significant life events
• finding small positives alongside setbacks, including injury and rehab
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Song of the Week:

I Will Go Sailing No More - Randy Newman

https://youtu.be/AOBIcW4hIBw?si=YgrUtd5z2yOjlRA8

Thought of the Week:

The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and The Horse by Charlie Mackesy

"What do we do when our hearts hurt? asked the boy. We wrap them with friendship, shared tears and time, till they wake happy and hopeful again"

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Season 2 Episode 14

I’m recording from Newcastle while I’m deep in learning and thinking about what real change looks like when you live with PTSD. I use Green Day’s “Still Breathing” to remind you that if you’re still here, you can start again and you can move forward, even if it’s slow.

• correcting last week’s song credit mix-up
• taking The Change Room course and why I recommend it
• simple breathing and movement tools you can weave into daily life
• “still breathing” as a mental health turning point
• why recovery has no time frame and no neat finish line
• honest talk on suicidal lows, hospital stays, and rebuilding
• choosing change, practising tools, and dropping relapse shame
• swimming mornings with my son and the value of shared time
• needing alone time as a parent and protecting downtime
• sleep hygiene habits, reading at night, and reducing phone use
• big kids bring big problems and we learn as we go
• what my PTSD journey teaches my kids about mental health
• thought of the week on choosing kindness

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Have a great week, and don't forget to be kind to yourself.

Song of the week:

Still Breathing - Greenway

https://youtu.be/SUzsih7QJSY?si=ndffQuJrrzBf56Gu

Thought of the Week:

The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and The Horse - Charlie Mackesy

"What do you want to be when you grow up? asked the mole. Kind, said the boy"

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Season 2, Episode 13

I talk about what it feels like to swing through a whole stack of emotions in one day and how living with PTSD can make that feel like different versions of me. I share a tough reminder that PTSD still shows up sometimes, plus a few bright spots like better sleep, creative projects, and small wins that keep me moving forward.
• feeling emotions again after coming off strong antidepressants and learning to regulate reactions
• a sudden work nightmare and the shock of realising PTSD is still there
• sleep improving and how that changes day-to-day energy and motivation
• entering the local country show with honey, jams and relishes and the chaos of collecting entries
• starting quilting and sewing, hyperfixating on projects and learning a new machine
• using thrifted denim to plan a throw quilt and making the hobby affordable
• inviting listeners to share their stories and jump on for interviews
• a mentor’s TED Talk on internal dialogue and a simple thought about success and self-love
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Song of the week:

Bitch by Meredith Brooks

https://youtu.be/_ivt_N2Zcts?si=_ND-AclPQNzMAA1y

Thought of the Week

The Boy, The Mole, The Fox and The Horse by Charlie Mackey

" What do you think success is? asked the boy. To love, said the mole"

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Season 2, Episode 12

**** trigger warning - talk of mental health and suicide****

We follow the thread of “Follow Your Arrow” into the messy reality of PTSD, stigma, and why other people’s opinions can quietly steer our choices. I share how a sore knee and a jarred finger triggered a sudden mental health crash, then work through practical ways to reframe setbacks and speak to ourselves with more kindness.
• using the song “Follow Your Arrow” to challenge stigma and judgment
• putting our needs first even when others disapprove
• reflecting on Jeff’s honesty about alcoholism, AA, and PTSD masking
• noticing how quickly physical pain can trigger depression
• navigating the catch-22 of staying active while risking injury
• dealing with exhaustion, sleep issues, and low tolerance days
• attending the hospital memorial rock garden opening ceremony
• redefining productivity and celebrating small wins to reduce negative self-talk
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Song of the week:

Kasey Musgraves - Follow your arrow

https://youtu.be/kQ8xqyoZXCc?si=ScT33a_VGahmHd2l

Thought of the week:

The boy, the mole, the fox and the horse by Charlie Mackesy

"you fell - but I've got you"