February 17, 2026 marks a rare cosmic convergence that happens once every 60 years.

In this solo episode, we explore the intersection of grief and the Year of the Fire Horse, a powerful metaphor for riding the uncontrollable momentum of loss while finding your center in the chaos.

We're standing at the threshold of three major energetic events: the Chinese Lunar New Year (Year of the Fire Horse), an Aquarius Solar Eclipse, and a rare planetary alignment that amplifies our ability to speak the truths of grief.

Whether you believe in astrology or not, there's something palpable in our collective.

This episode offers practical rituals, collective practices, and gentle guidance for grievers at every stage of their journey. If you've ever felt like grief is a wild horse you can't control, this conversation is for you.

Key Takeaways:

Grief is more like riding than walking. You can't outrun it or think your way past it.

The Fire Horse rewards courage, not readiness. Take one small brave step toward what your grief has frozen, even if you don't feel ready yet.

Eclipse energy initiates six-month cycles. What you set in motion today—a grief intention, a conversation, a ritual—will carry forward through August 2026.

Your healing is connected to collective healing. The Aquarius eclipse asks: what happens when we stop performing "fine" and bring our grief into community?

Words carry more weight today. Speak your person's name, say the unsayable, let the imperfect words come.

Transformation happens inside containment. If you're in early grief and the "Fire Horse energy" feels like too much, remember the butterfly emerging from the chrysalis. The quiet, hidden work is still transformation.

Fire destroys and illuminates. Grief burns away what no longer serves while lighting the path forward.

Who This Episode Is For

• Anyone navigating the early, raw stages of grief
• Grievers who feel stuck or frozen in their process
• People looking for ways to mark significant dates or thresholds in their grief journey
• Those seeking community around loss
• Anyone who has felt like grief is a wild, uncontrollable force
• Those looking for grief support resources to share

Sources:

Today.com - "What the Solar Eclipse in Aquarius on February 17 Means for Your Sign"

Khanji School - "Year of the Fire Horse 2026: meaning and Chinese culture"

Elle Australia - "What Lunar New Year's 'Year Of The Fire Horse' Means For 2026"

Moon Omens - "Mercury in Pisces 2026: the Language of Soul" and "Solar Eclipse in Aquarius 2026: A New Timeline"

Bonnie Sorsby Astrology - "Aquarius Eclipse February 17, 2026 Deep Dive + Full Guide"

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What does grief teach us about how to live, lead, and love? What happens when the work we do in the world meets what we’re carrying inside?

In this episode, host Nina Rodriguez sits down with development practitioner, global thought leader, and poet Carl Manlan, author of i can breathe, for a moving conversation on grief, legacy, resilience, and meaning.

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Carl reflects on how loss reshaped his understanding of resilience, leadership, and what it means to honor those who came before us, and the grief that arises from life changes, transitions, and the unexpected losses that quietly reshape our lives. His poetry became a necessary language for grief, a way to express what policy, strategy, and everyday conversation often cannot.

Nina and Carl explore grief as an experience rooted in love, memory, and connection. They discuss how creativity and poetry can support healing, how personal loss deepens our capacity for service and leadership, and how parental and intergenerational influence continues to shape the way we show up for ourselves and our children.

This episode is a gentle reminder that grief is not just sorrow. It's also about legacy, memory, and the courage to keep breathing. Carl’s poems chart the path between losing and learning to live with loss, offering honesty, tenderness, and the wisdom of someone who has walked this path.

This conversation explores:

• Why “you only grieve what you love”
• Poetry and creativity as vessels for grief
• The connection between loss and leadership
• How upbringing and parental influence shape resilience and service
• Finding joy, gratitude, and meaning alongside grief
• Parenting and legacy: what we pass on to our children emotionally
• Creativity as a survival tool
• The symbolism behind Carl’s poetry and imagery
• Creating space for future generations to express emotion

Key Takeaways:

• Grief is the echo of love; we grieve because we have loved deeply
• Grief is sensory and embodied, living in memory, feeling, and the body
• Poetry and creative expression can hold what logic and language cannot
• Loss can clarify purpose and inspire deeper service
• Honoring loved ones keeps their presence alive; legacy is lived, not just remembered
• Children learn how to carry grief by observing how we do it
• Beauty and sorrow can coexist
• Grief deepens our appreciation for life and what truly matters

Connect with guest, Carl Manlan:

• carlmanlan.com
• Book: i can breathe
• Inside the Blueprint Podcast

Connect with host, Nina Rodriguez:

• griefandlight.com
• @griefandlight

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In this solo episode of Grief and Light, Nina Rodriguez reflects on the ambient grief many of us are carrying in response to global, political, and collective uncertainty.

After taking a pause to tend to her own nervous system and grief, Nina shares a reflection rooted in presence rather than answers, exploring what it means to keep creating, caring, and staying human when the world feels overwhelming and dissonant.

Drawing on grief literacy, nervous system awareness, and the story behind Claude Monet’s Water Lilies, this episode gently reframes hope not as a feeling, but as an action, something we practice in small, everyday ways, even when clarity feels out of reach.

This is an episode for anyone feeling frozen, disconnected, or unsure how to move forward without turning away from reality.

Referenced in This Episode:

• Essay: The Grief of Uncertainty in Unprecedented Times
• Podcast Episode

This Episode Explores

• Ambient and collective grief in times of global and political disruption
• Nervous system overwhelm, freeze responses, and grief fatigue
• The dissonance of daily life continuing during crisis
• Hope as a verb rather than something we wait for
• Art, creation, and meaning-making during times of war and uncertainty
• Claude Monet’s Water Lilies as a historical response to personal and collective trauma
• Staying engaged without becoming consumed
• Choosing presence, care, and humanity in small, ordinary ways

This Episode Is For

• Those feeling overwhelmed by world events and political realities
• Grievers navigating uncertainty without clear answers
• Creators questioning the role of art, work, or expression during crisis
• Anyone feeling disconnected, frozen, or unsure how to “show up” right now
• Listeners seeking grief-literate reflection rather than solutions
• Grieving hearts seeking messages of hope

Connect with Nina Rodriguez:

• griefandlight.com
• @griefandlight
• Resting Grief Face on Substack

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How do we decide what to keep after a loved one dies?

In this insightful episode, Nina Rodriguez is joined by grief coach, curator of The Grief Gallery™, and author, Charlene Lam, for a deeply human conversation about curating grief: the tender, often overwhelming process of choosing what to keep after loss.

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After the sudden death of her mother in 2013, Charlene found herself alone with the responsibility of sorting through her mom’s belongings. That experience became the foundation for her work, including the 10 Object Method, a reflective practice that invites grievers to select a small number of meaningful items as a way of honoring relationships, reclaiming narrative, and maintaining continuing bonds.

Together, Nina and Charlene explore the emotional weight of everyday objects, the cultural and personal lenses that shape grief, and the evolving nature of our connection to those who have died. This conversation reminds us that grief is not something to complete or solve, it is something we live with, curate, and carry forward in ways that are deeply personal and uniquely our own.

Whether you’re facing a house full of belongings, grieving a loss beyond death, or simply wondering how memory and meaning intertwine, this episode offers language, permission, and companionship.

Key Takeaways

• Curating grief is about choosing what holds meaning, not following rules.
• The 10 Object Method offers a gentle framework for honoring relationships after loss.
• Belongings can feel emotionally overwhelming, especially when time and resources are limited.
• Objects often serve as anchors for memory, identity, and continuing bonds.
• Grief is not static; our relationship with those we’ve lost evolves over time.
• Everyday items can carry deep symbolic and emotional weight.
• Grief extends beyond death and includes many forms of loss.
• Curating memories helps us reclaim our personal narratives.
• Cultural perspectives shape how grief is experienced and expressed.
• Sharing stories keeps connection alive and helps reduce isolation.

Guest: Charlene Lam

• Author, Speaker, Grief Coach & Curator
• @curating_grief
• curatinggrief.com
• [BOOK] Curating Grief: A Creative Guide to Choosing What to Keep After a Loved One Dies

Hosted by: Nina Rodriguez

• griefandlight.com
• @griefandlight
• Resting Grief Face on Substack
• Grief Tending Toolkit

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Episode 100 of Grief and Light marks a meaningful milestone shaped not only by consistency and care, but by the relationships formed along the way. Nina Rodriguez chose to honor this moment with a feed swap: a deeply personal episode originally recorded for The Life Shift Podcast, hosted by fellow podcaster and friend Matt Gilhooly.

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Grief and Light Podcast: Exploring Grief & Lighting the Way to Hope by Frank Racioppi, EAR WORTHY

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This episode reflects one of the most unexpected and beautiful ripple effects of saying yes to grief work: the genuine connections that emerge when we choose to stay in honest conversation over time. In this role-reversed dialogue, Matt interviews Nina about the sudden loss of her brother and the life-altering moment that reshaped everything that followed.

Nina reflects on the spontaneous decision to visit her brother on his birthday, followed by the shock, surrealism, and disorientation of receiving the news of his unexpected death. She speaks openly about his long-term sobriety, the hope and plans they held for his future, and the complexity of grieving someone whose life carried both struggle and profound love.

Nina and Matt explore the unpredictable nature of life, the emotional disconnection that often accompanies sudden loss, and the quiet ways grief changes how we move through the world. What emerges is a story of learning how to live with grief.

Nina shares how creating Grief and Light became a way to stay in relationship with her grief, transforming pain into presence, isolation into connection, and making meaning.

This episode is a meditation on human connection, the power of curiosity in times of loss, and the possibility of honoring grief without needing to resolve it.

Key Takeaways:

• One of the beautiful ripple effects of this journey is the meaningful connections it has forged.
• About 5% of podcasts make it past the 100th episode.
• You don’t need answers or clarity to be present with grief.
• Meaning-making after loss is not linear or prescriptive; it unfolds in its own time.
• Grief can change how we relate to ourselves, our relationships, and our sense of the future.
• Curiosity can be a gentler companion than certainty when navigating loss.
• Honoring someone’s full story (including struggle, hope, and love) matters in grief.
• Human connection is one of the most sustaining forces during times of loss.
• Joy and sorrow are not opposites; they can coexist.
• Staying in relationship with grief can transform isolation into connection.

Connect with Matt Gilhooly:

• thelifeshiftpodcast.com
• @thelifeshiftpodcast

Connect with Nina Rodriguez:

• griefandlight.com
• @griefandlight
• Resting Grief Face on Substack

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An honest exploration of grief, creativity, and community with the visionary behind Women Who Podcast magazine—covering storytelling, anticipatory grief, and the movement to amplify women’s voices in podcasting.

In this conversation, Nina Rodriguez sits down with Kathy Barron, founder and Editor-in-Chief of Women Who Podcast Magazine, to explore the power of women’s voices, the complexity of grief, and the courage it takes to tell honest stories.

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Kathy shares the origin story behind the magazine: a space born from her desire to see women not just represented in podcasting, but truly celebrated. As the conversation unfolds, Kathy opens up about her own relationship to loss, including the quiet, complicated ache of anticipatory grief as she navigates her mother’s aging, as well as moments of soul-level connection she feels with farming communities and Mexican culture.

Nina and Kathy explore how grief shapes identity, creativity, and the way we move through the world. They talk about the tension between what we hold privately and what we offer publicly, the healing potential of artistic expression, and the moments of clarity that come from living inside “the dash”—the space between birth and death.

Kathy also reflects on the evolving landscape of podcasting, from the pressures of imposter syndrome to the new possibilities—and challenges—posed by AI. She offers grounded, generous advice for aspiring women podcasters seeking connection, mentorship, and confidence in a space that hasn’t always made room for them.

This episode is a reminder that storytelling is community-building, grief is deeply personal but never solitary, and women’s voices deserve to take up space—loudly, boldly, and without apology.

Key Takeaways

• Women Who Podcast magazine amplifies and uplifts women’s voices across the industry.
• Community is essential for creative collaboration, support, and sustainability.
• Grief manifests differently for everyone, shaped by personal and generational experiences.
• Artistic expression—writing, podcasting, humor—can deepen connection and understanding.
• Anticipatory grief involves mourning who someone once was while caring for who they are now.
• Hard conversations about mortality, aging, and loss are uncomfortable—but necessary.
• Sarcasm can be a tool for truth-telling and authenticity in storytelling.
• Aspiring podcasters benefit from mentorship, collaboration, and supportive networks.
• Critical thinking is more important than ever in a rapidly shifting tech landscape.
• Reclaiming creativity in the age of AI matters for podcasters, writers, and artists alike.

Guest: Kathy Barron

• Founder & Editor-in-Chief
• @womenwhopodcastmagazine
• womenwhopodcastmag.com

Hosted by: Nina Rodriguez

• griefandlight.com
• @griefandlight

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Sometimes, healing begins in motion. In this episode, Nina Rodriguez sits down with Bianca Alba, founder of This Latina Travels, to explore how grief, identity, and travel intertwine. What starts as a conversation about exploring the world becomes a deeper story about returning to yourself.

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Her story begins in a single-parent household where vacations felt like something other people did, faraway dreams that didn’t belong to families like hers. Today, Bianca has traveled to six continents and uses her platform to show women of color what’s possible when you give yourself permission to go. Her work reminds us that representation isn’t just inspiring, it’s necessary.

Nina and Bianca also reflect on the power of community, having recently shared virtual space as speakers at the Latinas in Podcasting Summit 2025. The conversation moves through grief, identity, purpose, and the courage it takes to keep expanding your life after loss.

Bianca opens up about the Lola Challenge, a three-day running event in Puerto Rico that connects her to her body, her resilience, and the island she now calls home. She recounts a deeply emotional moment on a beach in the Virgin Islands that reminded her how grief meets us wherever we are.

They also explore the complexities of traveling during political and social turbulence, including recent US disruptions affecting travelers. Bianca speaks honestly about the privilege and guilt of being a travel content creator during difficult times, and how she balances joy with responsibility, visibility, and awareness.

Her love for Puerto Rico weaves through the conversation—its beauty, its challenges, and the hope she carries for change. Bianca shares her vision for future retreats on the island: spaces rooted in culture, learning, healing, and community. Places where women can breathe, honor their grief, and rediscover parts of themselves that got lost along the way.

This episode is an invitation to rethink how movement, land, and connection can hold us through grief. A reminder that healing isn’t linear; it’s lived, mile by mile, moment by moment.

Key Takeaways:

• Travel can be a companion to grief, offering new ways to process loss.
• Representation matters—It can be life-changing for women of color to see themselves in spaces historically closed to them.
• Grief and joy often coexist, and choosing adventure after loss isn’t forgetting—it's honoring the fullness of being alive.
• Community heals—from podcast summits to shared stories, connection lights the way forward.
• Travel during turbulent times is complex, and it’s okay to hold both gratitude and discomfort as you navigate privilege and responsibility.
• Puerto Rico holds deep lessons about resilience, culture, and what it means to belong to land and community.

Guest: Bianca Alba

• Blogger & Podcaster
• @thislatinatravels
• thislatinatravels.com

Hosted by: Nina Rodriguez

• griefandlight.com

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What happens when you gather a circle of grievers, creators, and grief-literacy leaders around one table and ask them to tell the truth about how loss has reshaped their families, and their lives?

In this special Grief Week episode of Grief and Light, we find out.

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This episode is an offering for anyone navigating family changes after loss, for anyone bracing for the holidays, and for anyone who needs to hear that their grief makes sense, that their story matters, and that connection is still possible even in the midst of heartbreak.

Each year, the first week of December marks Grief Week—a global invitation to slow down, raise awareness, open conversations, and build a more grief-informed world. In honor of this mission, Nina Rodriguez brings together members of the Get Griefy Small Business Collective for a roundtable conversation that feels equal parts honest, tender, and unexpectedly uplifting.

From the moment the mic turns on, the episode unfolds like a shared living room, where stories overlap, tears sit beside laughter, and the complexity of grief is met with curiosity instead of fear. Together, Nina and her guests explore how loss ripples through families: the shifting dynamics, the roles we grow into (or out of), the unspoken tensions, and the surprising places where connection begins to mend what grief has fractured.

What emerges is not just a conversation, but a reminder:
Grief may isolate, but community brings us home to ourselves.
Through creativity, storytelling, mutual witnessing, and the simple act of speaking honestly, this group shows what’s possible when we don’t grieve alone.

Connect with our guests & their offerings:

• AMANDA MCKOY FLANAGAN: amandamckoyflanagan.com
• ANGIE HANSON: butterfliesandhalos.com
• CHARLENE LAM: curatinggrief.com
• KERA SANCHEZ: getgriefymagazine.com
• LIZ QUINN: @lizquinnheals

Hosted by: Nina Rodriguez

• Creator of Grief and Light, Grief Guide
• griefandlight.com
• @griefandlight
• Resting Grief Face on Substack

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• Grief Tending Toolkit
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