FORWARD , Episode 103
"Sweet Tea"

Most people think OCD means being neat and particular. It doesn't.

In this episode, host CJ Monaghan sits down with Kennedy , a singer-songwriter from Kansas City, now based in Nashville, performing under the name Judo Blue , and Dr. Amy Mariaskin, licensed clinical psychologist and founding director of the Nashville OCD and Anxiety Treatment Center.

Kennedy performs two original songs live in the studio. The first, "Sweet Tea," opens with one of the most vulnerable moments the Forward room has seen so far , the story of a night where passive suicidal ideation became active, a breakdown behind the wheel, and the conversation with his wife that changed everything. The second, "Dr. Goose," is a co-written coming-of-age song about nostalgia, self-doubt, and the slow work of finding your footing.

Between the songs, Amy dismantles the most common OCD misconception , that it's about being tidy or particular , and replaces it with something far more accurate: sticky, unwanted intrusive thoughts that loop and compound, and the exhausting mental rituals people use to manage them. Kennedy describes his own experience with Pure O OCD, the paralysing perfectionism it brings to his creative process, and the counterintuitive strategy that finally got him unstuck.

This conversation covers the relationship between OCD and creativity, why waiting until you feel ready means you'll never act, what relationship OCD actually looks like, and why early diagnosis matters more than most people realise. Amy also shares her own story , symptoms starting at age six or seven, diagnosis at 24, mid-session with her first OCD client.

It's honest, funny, and at times genuinely moving. Exactly what this room is for.

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RESOURCES MENTIONED
Nashville OCD & Anxiety Treatment Center: ocdnashville.com | @ocdnashville
International OCD Foundation: iocdf.org
Relationship OCD resource: rocd.net
Book: Thriving in Relationships When You Have OCD by Dr. Amy Mariaskin

ABOUT THE SHOW
Forward is a Nashville-based podcast at the intersection of music and mental health. Each episode, a singer-songwriter performs an original song live in the studio, then sits alongside a mental health clinician or advocate for a conversation about what the song reveals. Forward is hosted by CJ Monaghan , songwriter, music industry insider, and someone navigating his own mental health journey.

GUESTS THIS EPISODE
Kennedy (Judo Blue) , Singer-songwriter , @judo.blue on all platforms
Dr. Amy Mariaskin , Founding Director, Nashville OCD & Anxiety Treatment Center , ocdnashville.com

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FORWARD — Episode 002 "Sometimes I Run"

Sometimes the song writes itself before you understand why.

In this episode, host CJ Monaghan sits down with Nashville soul-pop singer-songwriter Mason McClintock, alongside Kara Kemp and Lizzie Maranto from ECCHO Live an organization built to support the mental health of touring and live event professionals.

Mason performs two original songs live in the room: "Sometimes I Run" and "Hullabaloo." Then, together, the group takes the songs apart the meaning behind them, the moments that inspired them, and the emotional terrain they came from.

Mason opens up about growing up queer in a small town in southeast Georgia, discovering songwriting as a way to process feelings he couldn't safely say out loud, and how that early necessity became a lifelong creative practice. "Sometimes I Run" leads into a conversation about inherited pain, resentment, and the difference between understanding why someone hurt you and excusing it. "Hullabaloo" opens up a conversation about worthiness, falling in love, and the fear that comes with being truly seen by another person.

Kara brings her own perspective as a coach and longtime touring crew chief, reframing the idea of running from something, versus running toward something and the practice of choosing stillness in a culture that prizes constant motion. Lizzie brings clinical grounding throughout, including a conversation about distress tolerance, the physiological effects of naming an emotion, and why mutual vulnerability is the foundation of real connection.

This is a conversation about songwriting as survival, the armor we carry without noticing, and what it costs an artist and what it gives back to put the hardest parts of life into a three-and-a-half-minute song.

Recorded during Pride month, this episode closes with a moment of celebration: being proud of every part of who you are, including the parts you spent years trying to hide.

ABOUT THE SHOW Forward is a Nashville-based podcast at the intersection of music and mental health. Each episode, a singer-songwriter performs an original song live in the studio, then sits alongside a mental health clinician or advocate for a conversation about what the song reveals. A mental health professional is present for every recording. Forward is hosted by CJ Monaghan songwriter, music industry insider, and someone navigating his own mental health journey.

GUESTS THIS EPISODE Mason McClintock Singer-songwriter Instagram: @masonjmcclintock Kara Kemp General Manager, ECCHO Live Instagram: @karajkempcoach Lizzie Maranto Program Manager, ECCHO Live LinkedIn: @elizabethmaranto

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Before the songs. Before the guests. Before the conversations this room is going to hold — there's this.

Host CJ Monaghan sits alone in the studio where Forward will be recorded and does what he's about to ask every guest to do: go first.

In this solo intro episode, CJ introduces himself not as a host, but as someone in the middle of their own mental health journey, including a diagnosis of Bipolar II that changed the way he understands himself, his behaviours, and why he spent the last year and a half building this show.

He talks about a writers round he attended in Nashville. A combat veteran on stage. Songs written out of PTSD, loss, and years of carrying things most people don't talk about in public. The moment after the performance where CJ walked up, shook his hand, and said the thing nobody else said. "I'm sorry about your friend." And what that one sentence did to a man who was braced for a compliment.

That moment is the seed of Forward.

CJ lays out what the show is, what it isn't, and why it exists. A singer-songwriter performs an original song live in the room. A mental health clinician or advocate sits with them. And then line by line they go through the lyrics. What were you actually saying? Where did it come from? What should someone do if they recognised their own life in it?

He's honest about the music industry's complicated relationship with artists' pain. About the difference between documenting something and processing it. About why a room that laughs is just as important as a room that listens.

He's clear about who this show is for: the person who uses music as emotional infrastructure. The songwriter who is confessional in their art and guarded in their life. Anyone who has ever heard a song and quietly wondered "are they okay"?

This is the conversation before the conversation. The forward, before the main work begins.

Welcome to Forward.

ABOUT THE SHOW Forward is a Nashville-based podcast at the intersection of music and mental health. Each episode, a singer-songwriter performs an original song live in the studio, then sits alongside a mental health clinician or advocate for a line-by-line conversation about what the song cost them to write. A mental health professional is present for every recording. Forward is hosted by CJ Monaghan, a songwriter, music industry insider, and someone navigating his own mental health journey.

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