During this episode I explain the story of my 2014 football season. Lots of coaching drama.

An honest, non-sensational conversation about my relationship with porn, the patterns I’ve noticed, and why I’m finally taking porn addiction seriously instead of minimizing it.

In this episode of A Football Life, Zane reflects on the years between his high school football career and his eventual return to the game as a coach — what he calls “the void.” He shares stories about near-misses with college football opportunities, recruiting conversations that didn’t work out, choosing a college without a team, and wondering how different life might have been if he’d taken another path.

He talks about losing momentum in the sport, trying to hold onto football through intramural play and early volunteer coaching, and how life decisions, family circumstances, and career choices kept pulling him away from the game. The episode builds toward a bigger realization: after decades of chasing football, he’s questioning whether it’s finally time to let it go and make space for a new chapter beyond the sport.

In this episode of A Football Life, Zane begins telling his personal football story as he stands at a major crossroads — questioning whether to walk away from coaching after nearly 20 years in the game. He rewinds to where it all started in 2002, sharing memories of his first practices, early expectations, and the harsh reality of stepping onto the field unprepared.

He talks candidly about struggling as a freshman player, dealing with tough coaching, injuries, limited playing time, and how rough those early seasons really were — yet why he chose to stick with football anyway. This episode sets the foundation for a reflective series about identity, growth, setbacks, and what the sport has meant in his life.

Zane shares a raw, unfiltered recap of a chaotic singles fitness-dating event he attended, breaking down the awkward activities, uneven turnout, and frustrating interactions. He talks through the event structure, the people he met, where conversations clicked (and didn’t), and why the format made real connection difficult. With humor and self-reflection, he vents about modern dating, confidence, rejection, and expectations — while still giving himself credit for showing up and taking a shot. He closes with travel plans, listener shout-outs, and a reminder to keep pushing forward despite setbacks.

In this episode, Zane gives a raw, humorous, and honest look into the reality of modern dating as a single guy with a small social circle. Recording from bed on a freezing Saturday, he talks about the mental battle of pushing himself to attend a gym-based singles event — even when he doesn’t want to go — and the effort it takes for men to create opportunities to meet women.

He shares frustrations about dating culture, approaching women respectfully, gym dynamics, and how discouraging repeated rejection or lack of results can feel. Along the way, he reflects on past relationships, heartbreaks, mindset shifts, and the personal growth that came from learning to be happy alone — including solo trips, self-work, and changing unhealthy romantic expectations.

The episode blends comedy, vulnerability, and blunt self-awareness, capturing the awkward grind of putting yourself out there while still holding onto hope.

In this episode, Zane records a raw, unfiltered reflection after a tough work week and a stretch of low motivation. He talks about falling behind, trying to regain momentum, and recognizing that he’s in the middle of a personal “reawakening.” From there, he looks back at the COVID era and how lockdown life, remote work, and “fake school” conditions reshaped his habits, discipline, and outlook on effort.

He shares honest stories from teaching at an alternative school during shutdowns — scrambling to prepare lessons, watching standards drop, and seeing how both students and teachers shifted into survival mode. The episode explores burnout, responsibility, disengagement, and respect for the people who are built for hard emotional work — even when he knows he wasn’t.

A candid, reflective episode about drifting, accountability, and trying to get your edge back.

I Proudly Present High Thoughts, Like Shower Thoughts but BETTER. Sometimes it’s funny, sometimes it’s heavy, sometimes it’s just me chasing a thought until it breaks. No experts, no polish—just honest, unfiltered thinking in a world that really doesn’t like that.

Special Episode - I am drunk!