What happens when you finally get everything you thought you wanted and it still leaves you empty?

In this powerful episode of When You Look, author Tindell Baldwin shares her raw and unfiltered story of chasing popularity, partying, relationships, and approval—only to find herself battling addiction, depression, and suicidal thoughts by the end of high school. From the outside, it looked like she had it all. On the inside, she was falling apart.

This is a story about the illusion of popularity, the hidden cost of chasing the wrong things, and the moment everything changed.

If you’ve ever felt the pressure to fit in, to be accepted, or to build your identity around what others think—this conversation will hit home.

👉 In this episode, you’ll hear:

- What “having it all” actually felt like behind the scenes

- How addiction and emptiness took hold during high school

- The turning point that changed everything

- What true identity and purpose really look like

- Why chasing popularity is never worth it

This is more than a story—it’s a wake-up call.

📚 Get Tindell’s book - Popular: Booze, Boys, and Jesus https://a.co/d/03BW11ad

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Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tindellgrace/

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Tindell's Podcast: https://open.spotify.com/show/1bNfflCx0ugpXHB4zLsUYE?si=1TuckBY4SnCz_vW8GTiFFg

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Chapters

0:31 - Meet Author Tindell Baldwin

2:35 - Chasing Popularity

9:53 - Going Off the Rails

13:06 - Spring Break in Aruba

16:47 - Off to Auburn

19:26 - Passion Conference Nashville

23:02 - Surrendering

26:55 - Radical Transformation

31:35 - Meeting Ben

34:34 - STD Test

37:12 - Character & Love

39:15 - Coincidence or God?

41:11 - How Has Your Life Changed?

42:52 - What to Add to Popular?

44:23 - Tindell's Contact Info

What would you do in your daughter’s final moments?

After years of battling a mysterious illness that was later diagnosed as Lyme disease, Jody Hudson found herself standing beside her 22-year-old daughter’s bed faced with a challenging direction.

In this deeply emotional and faith-filled conversation, Jody shares the moment she felt prompted to do something no parent ever wants to do—give her daughter permission to let go. What happened next changed her faith forever and revealed a perspective on grief, God, and purpose that will stay with you long after this episode ends.

But this story doesn’t begin there.

From a childhood marked by instability, to divorce and financial collapse, to a decade-long fight to save her daughter from Lyme disease —Jody’s journey is one of pain, resilience, and ultimately, purpose.

You’ll also hear:

• The real impact of Lyme disease and why it’s often misdiagnosed

• The emotional toll of watching a child suffer—and not being able to fix it

• A powerful moment where Jody cried out to God in anger… and what happened next

• The meaning behind the bluebird that appeared every day at 3PM

• How she turned unimaginable loss into a mission to help others

This is more than a story about loss.

It’s a story about faith in the darkest moments—and what it looks like to keep showing up anyway.

👉 Learn more about Jody’s work and her foundation:

https://alexhudsonlymefoundation.org

👉 Get her book My Promise to Alex https://www.amazon.com/My-Promise-Alex-Jody-Hudson/dp/B09RM8WP5N

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Chapters

0:33 - Meet Jody Hudson

3:03 - Jody's Daughter, Alex

6:43 - Not Defined By Your Past

12:46 - Raw Moments With God

18:42 - Lyme Disease

25:05 - Coincidence or God?

26:30 - How Has Your Life Changed?

29:31 - Jody's Contact Info

What happens when an MIT-trained atheist sets out to disprove God using science… and the math refuses to cooperate?

In this powerful episode of When You Look, Mick sits down with former MIT student, attorney, and author Douglas Ell, who spent years believing that science had all the answers—and that belief in God was intellectually weak.

But everything changed when he started asking deeper questions.

After a moment in church stirred something unexpected, Doug began a personal investigation into cosmology, molecular biology, and physics. What he discovered challenged everything he thought he knew.

From the complexity of DNA and digital code in human cells…

to the fine-tuning of the universe…

to a shocking calculation by a Yale physicist showing the odds of life forming by chance are essentially zero…

Doug’s journey raises one unavoidable question:

Is belief in God actually the most rational conclusion?

In this episode, you’ll discover:

• Why an MIT atheist began questioning everything

• The shocking probability behind the origin of life (1 in 10^100,000,000,000)

• How DNA functions like advanced digital code

• Why some scientists believe the universe is finely tuned for life

• The moment that shifted Doug’s perspective forever

Was it coincidence… or God?

You decide.

👉 If this conversation challenged you, share it with someone who needs to hear it.

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Connect with Douglas Ell at https://countingtogod.com

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Chapters

0:29 - Meet Douglas Ell

4:37 - Starting to Investigate

7:20 - Moved at Church

11:12 - Christianity Didn't Answer Questions

12:39 - Doug's Deep Dive

15:47 - Probability of Life

20:28 - From Atheism to Intelligent Design

27:34 - Outside of Space and Time

30:44 - Has to be a Designer

35:01 - Nerdy Evidence

37:49 - Coincidence or God?

39:55 - How Has Your Life Changed?

41:25 - Where Does Jesus Fit In?

41:59 - Doug's Contact Info