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Self worth, low self esteem, emotional healing, childhood trauma, emotional neglect, perfectionism, people pleasing, suicide attempt survival, finding your purpose, and healing from grief are at the heart of today’s conversation.

In this episode of The Metamorphosis Project Podcast, Tenya sits down with Angie Hawkins for a raw and honest conversation about what it really takes to rebuild your life from the inside out.

Angie lives in Hawaii. She surfs. She watches the sunrise from her window. And for years, she still did not like herself.

Behind the beautiful backdrop was a woman operating from deep emotional neglect and low self-esteem. She believed she didn’t deserve love. She chased approval. She set impossible standards. She tried to earn her worth through perfectionism and achievement.

When grief, loneliness, career instability, and isolation piled up, Angie reached a breaking point that led to a suicide attempt. What happened next, and the words “It’s not your time,” became the moment she chose to live differently.

This episode explores how childhood trauma shapes adult beliefs, how perfectionism and people pleasing keep us stuck, and why moving across the country won’t fix internal pain. Real healing begins when we stop running and start reconnecting to ourselves.

Angie shares how she shifted from victim mindset to personal responsibility, left corporate America, and created her GLOW Method to help women rebuild self worth and reconnect to their inner light.

If you’ve ever struggled with low self-esteem, emotional regulation, grief, or the question “What is my purpose?”, this conversation will remind you that happiness and fulfillment are available.

You are not broken. You are not alone. And healing is possible.

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YouTube Chapters

0:00 She Lives in Hawaii… and Hated Herself
2:19 “I Didn’t Deserve Love”
4:10 Grief Broke Her Open
6:25 You Can’t Outrun Your Pain
8:23 Everything Fell Apart
9:49 The Suicide Attempt
10:01 “It’s Not Your Time”
10:34 Choosing a Different Life
16:46 Leaving Corporate for Purpose
22:44 The GLOW Method Explained

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Website: https://runninginslippers.com
Mention The Metamorphosis Project Podcast to access her complimentary 60-minute Find Your Glow session.

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Disclaimer

This podcast is for educational and informational purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical or mental health care. If you are experiencing thoughts of self-harm or suicide, please contact a licensed provider or emergency services in your area.

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🌟Tune into this episode of The Metamorphosis Project Podcast for a grounded, eye-opening conversation about functional mushrooms, burnout, and what real support for the nervous system actually looks like.

I sit down with Ben Brassington, a former behavior designer who found his way into natural wellness after hitting a wall with burnout, anxiety, and depression. What started as a personal search for relief turned into a deep dive into medicinal mushrooms, quality extraction, and why so many products on the market don’t deliver what they promise.

If you’ve ever tried mushroom coffee or supplements and thought, “I don’t feel anything,” this episode will make a lot of things click. Ben breaks down what quality really means in the functional mushroom world, why dosing and absorption matter, and how mushrooms can support real energy, calmer stress responses, better sleep, and sustainable routines that don’t feel restrictive or extreme.

We talk about Ben’s transition out of the corporate world, how functional mushrooms became a turning point for his nervous system and overall health, and why more is not always better when it comes to supplements. We also unpack marketing language that sounds impressive but often amounts to little more than boiled water and a label.

This conversation is practical, honest, and refreshing if you’re tired of quick fixes and want to understand how to work with your body instead of against it.


0:00 Welcome
2:58 Ben’s big mission and why it matters
5:43 Burnout to purpose, and the moment mushrooms shifted everything
8:44 Functional mushrooms vs psychedelics, clearing the misconception fast
9:18 The funniest, most shareable truth, “a fart’s worth of mushroom.”
19:20 Microdosing as a lifestyle, your “self-care is a frequency” moment
32:28 Extraction explained in plain language, why quality actually matters


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DisclaimerThis podcast is for educational and informational purposes only and is not medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare professional before starting supplements, especially if you are pregnant, nursing, have a medical condition, or take medications.

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🌟In this episode of The Metamorphosis Project, Tenya sits down with Terraine LeBeau from Behind the Shades to talk about grief in a way most people do not expect. Not just grieving a person, but grieving the version of you that used to fit in, used to chase approval, used to tolerate chaos, or used to believe love had to be earned.

Terraine shares what he calls the “terrible twenties,” how conditional love and anxious attachment shaped his choices, and the moment he realized he had to decide who he wanted to be. Together, they unpack grief identity, why losing an old identity can feel like losing a piece of yourself, how friendships change when you heal, and why closure is hard, especially when people ghost.

They also talk about family estrangement, grieving the parents you wish you had, and why peace can feel unfamiliar at first. If you have ever felt lonely during growth, questioned your worth, or realized you have been loyal to mistreatment because it is what you know, this conversation will land.

What you will hear in this episode

🌟What “grief identity” is, and why it shows up during major life changes

🌟The difference between losing an identity by choice, chance, or consequence

🌟Why healing often shifts your friendships and how “ghosting” can trigger abandonment wounds

🌟Trading quantity for quality, and learning what unconditional love actually feels like

🌟How estrangement ties into grief identity, and grieving people who are still alive

Why peace can feel uncomfortable when chaos has been your baseline

🌟The two nuggets Terraine wants you to remember: your worth is internal, and your circle matters

Guest info
Terraine LeBeau, Grief Identity Coach in relationships
Website: www.behindtheshades.ca

Special offer: Mention Tenya or this podcast and receive one hour of coaching free.

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This podcast is for educational and informational purposes only. It is not medical, mental health, or legal advice. Always consult a qualified professional for your specific situation.

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