Show Notes

Host: Sarah Stevenson, Goddess in Training

Episode type: Solo

Topics covered: Trusting intuition when outcomes are uncertain · the Costa Rica project · necrotizing fasciitis and the stop that changed everything · sitting in liminal space · what divinely inspired energy is actually for · the energy you spend is never wasted

🎵 Music credit: Intro and outro music: Madre Ayahuasca by ArkawaUsed with permission. More at arkawamusic.com🌐 Visit www.goddessintraining.online for more tools to support your intuitive journey.

When Divinely Inspired Things Don’t Work Out

There’s a foundation being poured in Costa Rica this week.

Concrete and rebar going into the ground on a piece of land I helped bring to life — a project that arrived the way the best things do: suddenly, fully, like it was always meant to be mine.

For over two years I poured everything into that vision. Time, money, heart. A romance. A business. Trips every two to three months. The kind of momentum that doesn’t feel like effort because something larger is doing the pulling.

And then my body stopped me.

Necrotizing fasciitis. Two weeks in a hospital. Surgery. And somewhere in all of that, the energy I’d carried for that project — the vibration, the life-giving excitement — quietly dissolved.

I came home and ended the romance. I stopped going back. And I sat with the question I couldn’t shake:

If it was divinely inspired, why didn’t it work out?

That’s what this week’s episode is about. Not a tidy answer — but the honest, ongoing work of a transition doula sitting with herself in a liminal space. What does it mean when something that felt so real, so full of divine momentum, shifts? Does it shake your trust in your intuition? Does it make you question the guidance you thought you were receiving?

I don’t think the energy was wasted. I think it was tuition.

And I’m beginning to see what it was actually preparing me for.

If you have your own “Costa Rica” — something that moved you, fueled you, and then stopped — this episode is for you.

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