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“We all affect everyone else’s mental health. If you are going through something right now, just keep going."

In this deeply powerful episode of The Angela Rose Show, Angela sits down with Laverne, who traveled all the way from Canada to share his story of growing up inside the Holdeman Mennonite community, surviving childhood abuse, sexual assault, religious fear, and the long road of reclaiming his voice, his body, and his worth.

Laverne opens up about the painful reality of growing up with an abusive mother- a woman he describes as violent, manipulative, emotionally cruel, and incapable of offering the nurture every child deserves. As the scapegoated child in a large family, Laverne experienced repeated verbal, emotional, and physical abuse, often being punished for things he did not do and learning early that love, safety, and protection were not guaranteed at home.

He shares how that maternal wound shaped so much of his life: the begging to be loved, the fear of rejection and abandonment, and the way childhood trauma impacted him in relationships and his career in law enforcement.

This conversation also explores the betrayal of not being protected after childhood sexual assault, the silence and control inside the church system, and the way religious fear was used to pressure children into compliance. Laverne names the devastating contradiction of a church that preached non-resistance while violence lived inside the home, and a culture that claimed to protect children while abuse was normalized, minimized, and handled internally.

Laverne shares honestly about therapy, EMDR, somatic healing, mental health crisis, PTSD, parenting differently, and what it means to “heal out loud” so others know they are not alone. He speaks with deep love for the little boy who survived, questioned, resisted, and somehow never fully lost himself.

With courage and honesty, we explore:
• Growing up in the Holdeman Mennonite community in Canada
• The impact of an abusive mother
• Being scapegoated as a child and punished for being true to himself
• The lifelong wound of not receiving nurture, affection, or protection from a mother
• Religious fear, hellfire preaching, revival pressure, and spiritual control
• The betrayal of childhood sexual assault not being handled with safety or justice
• Why silence only serves abusers
• How abuse hides inside high-control religious systems
• Mental health stigma, suicidal ideation, and why men need safe spaces to speak
•A career in Law enforcement, PTSD, burnout, and childhood trauma resurfacing
• Forgiveness as something done for yourself—not as permission for continued harm
• Parenting with love, protection, curiosity, and freedom
• Reclaiming the little boy who always knew he deserved more

This is not just a story of survival.
It is a story of truth, courage, and learning to love yourself again.

Trigger Warning: Discussion of childhood physical abuse, maternal abuse, sexual assault, religious trauma, coercive control, emotional abuse, mental health crisis, suicidal ideation, PTSD, family trauma, and spiritual manipulation.

If Laverne’s story resonated with you, please leave a comment and let him know what part of his story you connected with. These conversations matter. They help others feel less alone, and they remind us that telling our story can become a lifeline for someone else.

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The Scream I Couldn’t Let Out: Trauma Recovery, Somatic Release & Being Safely Witnessed

“I had always wanted to be able to scream. I always felt like I needed to let out a scream, but I couldn’t.”

In this powerful season one closing episode of The Angela Rose Show, Angela shares a deeply personal recovery story about experiential trauma therapy, emotional release, and what it felt like to finally be safely witnessed.

Instead of interviewing a guest, Angela reflects on her time at a trauma-informed healing workshop in Tennessee, where storytelling, confidentiality, consent, and shared humanity created a space where survivors could be seen without being fixed, advised, or judged.

Angela opens up about the impact of sharing her story timeline in a small group, watching others gently respond with tears, anger, and quiet connection. For someone who had often felt dismissed, misunderstood, or spiritually corrected instead of heard, this experience became a powerful example of what safe witnessing can feel like.

She also shares two deeply embodied moments from her recovery: the first time she was finally able to scream with a circle of other survivors, and a powerful exercise where carrying and throwing rocks became a physical release of anger, injustice, and old identities she never asked to carry.

With honesty and courage, we explore:
• Why some survivors feel the need to scream, but cannot access it
• The healing power of being witnessed without advice, fixing, or spiritual correction
• How storytelling can reduce shame and create connection
• The importance of consent, not only physically, but emotionally and verbally
• Why trauma survivors may need safe witnesses before they can fully express pain
• Somatic release through screaming, movement, nature, and embodied therapy
• Releasing anger in safe ways after years of suppression, obedience, and fear
• Dropping the “rocks” we were handed but never chose to carry
• The role of survivor community in helping us feel less alone
• Learning that emotional expression is not what is wrong with us — it may be what is right about us

This is not just a story about therapy.
It is a story of being heard, releasing what was never yours, and learning to express what had been silenced.

Trigger Warning: Discussion of trauma recovery, emotional abuse, psychological abuse, coercive control, religious trauma, suicidal ideation/intrusive thoughts, emotional suppression, and somatic release.

If this episode resonated with you, comment “I get it” below. If you have ever felt that scream stuck inside, or if you have ever needed someone to simply witness your pain without fixing it, you are not alone.

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One Year of The Angela Rose Show: Angela Answers Questions on Healing, Growth & Reclaiming Herself

“I like to think that my younger self is grinning because she feels seen.”

In this heartfelt one-year anniversary episode of The Angela Rose Show, Angela turns the microphone toward herself for a deeply personal conversation about growth, healing, creativity, and what this past year of podcasting has meant to her.

Instead of interviewing a guest, Angela answers thoughtful questions submitted by some of her closest friends, supporters, and therapist—people who have walked beside her behind the scenes and helped cheer her on through this journey. The result is an honest, reflective episode that celebrates not just a milestone, but the courage it takes to keep showing up.

Angela opens up about what she would say to the version of herself who started this podcast a year ago, the unexpected ways this work has grown her, and what it has meant to move from writing privately into the deeper vulnerability of being seen and heard on camera.

She also shares powerful insight into trauma recovery, boundaries, inner child healing, spirituality after leaving rigid religion, somatic healing, self-defense, safety, and the quiet but life-changing shift of learning that she deserves good things.

With honesty and reflection, we explore:
• What Angela would say to herself at the very beginning of this podcast journey
• How creating the show has deepened her confidence, voice, and sense of self
• The strength of emotional attunement, presence, and making others feel safe
• Why boundaries became essential as the platform and community grew
• How she holds both her own story and others’ stories without losing individuality
• What it was like growing up in a family that never fully fit the Mennonite mold
• How her understanding of faith, spirituality, and God has changed since leaving rigid religion
• The role of safety, therapy, friendships, and survivor community in post-trauma recovery
• Why nature, movement, massage, laughter, and self-defense have become vital parts of healing
• How hope, creativity, play, and honoring her younger self continue to shape who she is becoming

This is not just an anniversary episode.
It is a story of reflection, reclamation, and becoming more fully yourself.

Trigger Warning: Discussion of trauma, religious abuse, complex trauma, emotional pain, retraumatization, and recovery themes.

If Angela’s story or this podcast has meant something to you over the past year, thank you for being here. Your presence, support, and willingness to listen to hard stories with an open heart are part of what makes this work possible.

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