This week’s episode is a quiet, honest check-in from the middle of the muddle.

After coming off the high and exhaustion of a big mental health conference and heading straight into a deeply reflective spiritual formation retreat, Jacy shows up with very little polish and a lot of real life. What starts as a “tiny episode” turns into an unfiltered reflection on a moment of rupture in her marriage, the familiar instinct to lead with logic instead of presence, and the uncomfortable awareness that growth is still very much in progress.

In this episode, Jacy talks about:

The emotional whiplash of holding big events and deep personal work at the same time

Hurting someone you love without meaning to, and sitting in the aftermath

Rupture and repair, and why conflict isn’t the failure we think it is

Fear, emotional safety, and where those fears may come from

The strange, beautiful truth that pain is rarely experienced alone

There’s no tidy resolution here. Just honest processing, naming what feels hard, and choosing to stay present anyway. Plus, a Taste Like Sugar moment that reminds us how our own pain can unexpectedly become a place of connection and comfort for someone else.

If you’re in a season where you’re aware of your growth edges, feeling tender, or realizing you still have some learning to do, you’re not alone.

Pull up a chair. This one’s for the middle of it.