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For most of my life, I didn’t just feel alone — I felt unchosen.

In this episode, I share how my understanding of love began to change after encountering Jesus. Growing up in China during a complicated cultural season, I quietly formed the belief that love had to be earned — through performance, strength, and achievement.

But what if love isn’t something we fight for?

What if we are already chosen?

This episode is about healing the part of me that believed I had to prove my place — and discovering a love that didn’t require performance.

Not dramatic.
Not loud.
Just steady.

A quiet healing from the inside out.

If you’ve ever felt unseen, unworthy, or quietly alone — this one is for you.

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I didn’t go to Dallas to find God.

I went because I couldn’t stay in my life anymore.

What began as a simple weekend escape — a ten-hour drive to visit a friend — became something I never saw coming.

In this episode, I share the story of that trip:
the quiet exhaustion I carried,
the unexpected invitation to church,
and the moment something inside me broke open.

There was no thunder.
No dramatic voice from the sky.

Just a presence.
A peace.
A love I had never known before.

This is the story of how I thought I was running away…
and discovered I was being led somewhere my heart had been searching for all along.

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From the outside, everything was moving forward.

A new country.
A growing business.
A relationship that felt full of possibility.

It looked like the start of a beautiful new chapter.

But beneath the momentum… small cracks were forming.

In this episode, I share what it felt like to be building a life that appeared strong — while slowly losing my voice inside it.

How ambition can mask exhaustion.
How love can blur self-trust.
How success can quietly coexist with insecurity.

Because sometimes, life doesn’t fall apart all at once.

It unravels quietly —
even while everything seems to be just beginning.

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From the outside, my life looked strong.
Capable. Independent. Successful.

But beneath the surface, I was carrying a quiet exhaustion —
the kind that sleep doesn’t fix.

In this first episode, I share the story of who I was before faith found me:
a woman striving, achieving, holding everything together…
yet silently wondering:

If I stop being strong, will anything hold me?

This is not just a story about religion.
It’s a human story — about ambition, loneliness, self-reliance,
and the hidden cost of always being “the strong one.”

If you’ve ever felt lost without realizing it…
this episode is for you.

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