Some of us are not alive when we're here...

This episode came from a moment I had recently—one I didn’t plan, but couldn’t ignore.

Sitting in a movie theater, I found myself thinking about something I’ve thought about many times before: the difference between the time I’ve lived… and the time I likely have left.

But this time, it stayed with me.

And what struck me most wasn’t just that time is limited.

It’s how different life can feel once you finally arrive at something real—and realize how long it took to get there.

For a long stretch of my life… I wasn’t really living. I was just getting through it.

In this episode, I reflect on what it feels like when something you’ve known for a long time… becomes something you can’t ignore—and the quiet realization that life moves faster than you think.

This isn’t advice.

Just something I’m seeing more clearly now.

And maybe it’s worth seeing a little earlier.

Note: This episode is part of an exciting new creative direction for THEE BIG SWING, where every conversation is paired with an original companion song inspired by its emotional core. The companion song for this episode, "Alive While I'm Here," performed by Marcus Reede, is available on Apple Music, Spotify, YouTube Music, YouTube, and most major streaming platforms.

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THEE BIG SWING is a reflective podcast about the emotional reckonings and subtle internal recalibrations that change our trajectory over time — and the possibilities still available in life.

Each episode explores the moments when curiosity, courage, accountability, or reflection opens new ways of seeing ourselves and the world.

Through personal reflections and conversations, Lloyd explores changing identities, relationships, self-trust, and the quiet decisions that alter how we see ourselves over time.

THEE BIG SWING is for people who are quietly realizing they are not the same person anymore and that there are still choices left.

The biggest swing isn't always dramatic. Often, it's the shift inside that changes everything.

If something here stayed with you, you can reach me at lloyd@theebigswing.com