You’re clear on what you want, so why aren’t you getting it?

There’s a painful in-between many of us find ourselves in: knowing what we want, and still not receiving it.

In this episode of Codependency Alchemy, I revisit a simple but powerful analogy (we’re going to the ice cream shop) to explore why clarity alone isn’t always enough, and how settling for what doesn’t truly align can keep us stuck in relationships, jobs, or situations that drain us.

This is a conversation about discernment, self-trust, and learning how to stop accepting “vanilla” when your body is asking for chocolate.

What you’ll learn in this episode…

* Why knowing what you want doesn’t always lead to getting it

* How settling sends mixed signals to yourself (and the Universe)

* Why impatience and unworthiness keep us stuck

* How to stop accepting what you don’t actually want

This episode is for you if…

* You’re clear on what you want but keep getting something else

* You struggle with settling out of fear or impatience

* You’re practicing discernment in relationships or work

* You’re healing codependency or the mother wound

Your invitation…

I invite you to think about what your “chocolate ice cream” is. You might consider this as the type of relationship, job, or home you wish to have.

What is your chocolate ice cream?

Remember, try to get as specific as you can. Ask yourself:

How do I desire to feel? What do I value? In a relationship? In a job? In a home?

If this episode resonates, you’re invited to continue these conversations inside the Codependency Alchemy membership— a space where we practice witnessing the parts of us we neglect, or reject, building safety in our bodies through nervous system and somatic work, and generational healing together.

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There’s a moment many of us know well: your partner says no, and you really wanted them to say yes.

In this episode of Codependency Alchemy, I walk through a real-life moment from my relationship with Justin where his “no” triggered old patterns of control, guilt, and self-abandonment. I share more about what I wish I had done differently.

This isn’t about forcing agreement or suppressing your needs. It’s about learning how to respect your partner’s autonomy without making their “no” mean something about you…

Oh, and without abandoning yourself in the process.

What you’ll learn in this episode:

* Why your partner’s no can feel so personal

* How covert control and guilt show up in relationships

* The difference between boundaries and power struggles

* Why taking responsibility for your partner creates resentment

* How to stay on the same side of the problem instead of “me vs. you”

This episode is for you if…

* You get triggered when your partner says no

* You tend to take responsibility for other people’s choices

* You struggle with resentment or over-functioning

* You’re healing codependency or the mother wound

Your invitation…

As you listen and reflect on similar moments in your own relationship, you might contemplate:

What am I making my partner’s no mean about me? What am I making their choice mean about our relationship?

I invite you to share your reflections in the comments.

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Should you get back together with your ex, or is this just familiarity pulling you back in? Before you say yes, there are a few questions worth slowing down and asking.

This episode is for anyone who’s considering getting back together with an ex and wants to do it differently this time.

As someone who did get back together with her ex and rebuilt a relationship rooted in repair, accountability, and understanding that a safe nervous system is a non-negotiable, I share the three core questions that helped me discern whether reconnecting was actually aligned, or just old patterns resurfacing.

This isn’t about convincing yourself to try again. It’s about slowing down, listening to your body, and making space for clarity instead of urgency.

What you’ll learn…

* The first question to ask before considering getting back together with an ex

* How to tell if your ex has actually changed or is just saying the right things

* Why old issues will come back (and how to plan for that honestly)

* What it means to rebuild trust through repair instead of avoidance

* How to stop over-functioning and let the other person meet you

This episode is for you if…

* You’re thinking about getting back together with an ex

* You’re afraid of repeating the same patterns

* You want clarity without rushing a decision

* You tend to over-function or take responsibility for both people

* You want a relationship rooted in repair, not chemistry alone

My invitation to you…

Take a moment to reflect on what this relationship is here to teach and show you. Write in the comments:

“This relationship is here to teach me…” and notice what comes through.

If this episode resonates, you’re invited to continue this work inside the Codependency Alchemy membership, where we practice self-trust, repair, and building healthy relationships together.

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