In this episode, Patrick Teahan, MSW, explores the baseline feeling of being “in trouble”, that constant sense that someone is mad at you, you did something wrong, or you are about to be shamed. He breaks down why this internal alarm is so common in childhood trauma and how it can follow people into adulthood through imposter syndrome, anxiety dreams, and chronic hypervigilance.

Rather than treating it like a personality flaw, Patrick connects the “in trouble” feeling to shame-based family systems, especially homes with emotionally immature or abusive caregivers, scapegoating, addiction, unpredictable rules, and punishment instead of repair. He reframes it as an emotional flashback where the body signals, “It’s happening again,” even when the present moment is safe.

Listeners will learn:

• Why you might feel “in trouble” even when nothing is wrong
• How toxic shame damages self-trust and relationships
• Why relaxing can feel unsafe after growing up with chronic blame
• How survival responses like fawning, shutdown, fight, and parentification develop
• How to tell the difference between present-day accountability and old conditioning
• Journal prompts to trace where this started and “talk back” to the internalized abusive voice

Patrick also shares recovery tools like inner child work, repairing distorted perception, boundary development, and practicing self-protection in present-day triggers, such as conflict, tense emails, and setting preferences.

If you grew up feeling like a burden, the “bad kid,” or like one misstep could ruin everything, this episode offers language, validation, and a path toward reclaiming safety and self-trust.

Keywords: childhood trauma, toxic shame, feeling in trouble, emotional flashbacks, hypervigilance, emotionally immature parents, scapegoating, parentification, fawning, imposter syndrome, inner child work, trauma recovery

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