Self-destructive. The worst thing that could happen to herself is continuing to be herself. Continuing to be where she is. The need to be released has found her. Taking steps forward is difficult, seeing the chaos in the world is difficult. And anytime she sees a glimmer of confidence, any crumb of thought that could be her savior the words of those closest to her ears refill her with doubt. Reminded of the worst in her, if there’s a best in her it’s unseen here.