Having never experienced trauma before and learning what trauma is, my mind quickly went to what many Vietnam War Vets must feel like after I began to suffer from "incredible debilitating agonizing anxiety", which brought on "physical pain" with a feeling like I was going to "jump" out of my own skin.

This is my first book after I knew I could no longer live with the rage, resentment, and sadness I had compounded after the loss of my marriage and the death of my adult son, having to find my "path" of "forgiveness".

I embarked on an incredible journey with a "theologian" man and a "retired catholic nun" who served the church for over 25 years.

They "both" were my "angels and teachers", where I learned "forgiveness" and "trust", knowing both cannot "exist" without each other.

My writing became my "therapy", putting everything in "perspective" when I began to see all the "gifts and blessings God" has given me, and continues to give me.

My "rock" was gone, and all I had to hold onto then, now, and forever was my incredible faith in God.

I had so many "blessings" at one point in my life that I prayed asking "God" to "give me the resources" to "spread his word" so that "God's word" would "magically change others" as "God's gifts, tidings, and miracles have completely transformed me"

I realized that "Steven John" was my "resource" in my "beautiful story" of "self-forgiveness".